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Forbidden Desires: The Complete Series

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Forbidden Desires: The Complete Series

Cameron D. James and Sandra Claire

There are some lines not mean to be crossed … some desires that are forbidden. But try as one might, some taboos are simply too irresistible to hold sacred.

From a young man hooking up with his best friend’s dad, someone he’s always considered to be like a father, to a priest who engages in carnal sins with a parishioner, to a bombastic American president and his illicit love affair with an illegal Mexican rentboy … these men explore the forbidden, indulging in their deepest, darkest desires.

Collected in one volume are three such stories — tales of forbidden passions and devious desires.

Forbidden Desires is a 78,000-word bundle that collects Seduced By My Best Friend’s DadErotic Love and Carnal Sins: Confessions of a Priest, and The President And The Rentboy.


Purchase the ebook for only $0.99 at Smashwords, using coupon code YB47E!
That’s 83% off! Coupon code expires August 22, 2017.


Want to purchase the ebook at full price instead?
It’s available for $5.99 at:

Amazon | Barnes & Noble | Excitica | iTunes | Kobo | Smashwords


Prefer paperback? You can find that here:
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Upcoming Publication Schedule

Well… it’s been a while since I’ve released a book. The President And The Rentboy came out in early February. That was five months ago… that’s a long time in the world of erotic fiction. While in genres like sci-fi or fantasy, an author can release a book a year and be considered productive, erotic authors are often held to a more frequent release schedule.

While I generally don’t like to give into the pressures of this sort of thinking … this is what I’ve got planned for the next year (if a specific date isn’t mentioned, the release will happen toward the end of the month)…

  • July 2017: Forbidden Desires: The Complete Series by Cameron D. James and Sandra Claire, in both ebook and paperback. This collects Seduced By My Best Friend’s DadErotic Love and Carnal Sins: Confessions of a Priest, and The President And The Rentboy. I just saw the concept art from my cover artist and holy crap is it amazing. I can’t wait to get this book out!
  • August 2017: Sex For Money: How to Write, Publish and Sell Gay Erotica and M/M Erotic Romance — 2nd Edition. While it’s only been about a year since the original Sex For Money came out, the world of self-publishing has changed dramatically. This updated version will have much of the same content, but will expand on areas that have grown and remove areas that have disappeared (like All Romance eBooks). The revision has been written and it’s with my proofreader right now. If you bought the first edition and would like to see the second edition, I’ll share here on my blog on in my newsletter how you can get your copy for free. (Basically, you’ll have to show me that you purchased the first edition and I can email you the second edition — but those details will be sorted later.)
  • September 2017: Currently Untitled (Academic Discipline #1) by Cameron D. James and Dominic LeBlanc. This is a new school-centered series by myself and Master Dominic. Apparently, Amazon doesn’t allow Dominic to use “Master” as part of his name, so his pen name for “respectable fiction” (as he puts it) is Dominic LeBlanc. We’ve written the first draft of this book already — it’s a BDSM-themed love affair between a college student and his professor.
  • October 2017: Schoolboy Secrets (Academic Discipline #2) by Cameron D. James and Dominic LeBlanc. Like the Forbidden Desires series that I co-wrote with Sandra Claire, this Academic Discipline series is non-connected … each book is entirely standalone. Book 2 features a love triangle between an 18-year-old student at an all-boys private school, his PE teacher, and the principal, and will feature BDSM elements. We’re presently partway through the first draft.
  • November 2017: Currently Untitled (Academic Discipline #3) by Cameron D. James and Dominic LeBlanc. We don’t actually have a plot outline for this one yet … but we will soon!
  • December 2017: Academic Discipline: The Complete Series by Cameron D. James and Dominic LeBlanc. This will be a bundle of the three novellas in ebook and print format.
  • January 16, 2018: Autumn Fire. This was my very first novel, which had been published by Champagne Books. It’s currently unavailable because I’ve had the rights returned to me. I’m rewriting it (fixing a few things that bothered me and smoothing out some of the writing now that I’m a lot more experienced as a writer) and will be publishing it through my company, Deep Desires Press.
  • Winter/Spring 2018: New York Heat. This is a project I am very excited about. It’s a continuation of my two bestselling series, Men In The Hot Room and Go-Go Boys of Club 21. It will be a full-size novel in ebook and print. In a nutshell, Simon and Brad from the Hot Room stories move to New York to open a yoga studio next to Club 21, and the novel will follow all of the men as they confront the changes in their lives. It will be written so that if you have not read the previous books, you will get along just fine.
  • Spring/Summer 2018: Ryan’s Stars (might be renamed as Ryan’s Boys). This is also a sequel to Go-Go Boys of Club 21, but follows Ryan, Francis, and Damien in Los Angeles and the hedonistic world they live in. It will also be a full-size novel in ebook and print. It will be written so that if you have not read the previous books, you will get along just fine.
  • May 8, 2018: Silent Hearts. This was my second novel, also published by Champagne Books. It’s also currently unavailable for the same reason as Autumn Fire and I will soon be working on rewriting it. It will be published through Deep Desires Press.

These dates are flexible. The only ones that are absolutely firm are Autumn Fire and Silent Hearts as they are scheduled to be released through Deep Desires Press. Everything else depends on me being able to stay productive — but with a full-time day job and running Deep Desires Press, finding time to write can be difficult. I think, though, that I can do this.

Send coffee.

And cute boys.

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Erotic Love and Carnal Sins: Confessions of a Priest

My latest scorching hot novella — co-written with Sandra Claire — is now on Amazon, All Romance eBooks, and Smashwords! (It will appear on B&N, Excitica, iBooks, and Kobo soon!)

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Father Peter has devoted his life to the Roman Catholic Church — but not entirely because he is a man of God.  For him, a life of chastity and piety is the perfect place for a closeted gay man to hide from himself.

Try as he might to live a pure life, his forbidden desires chip away at him, leading him on a path of carnal sins that starts with a simple, anonymous, and discreet online encounter.  But that supposed anonymous encounter, with a man just as closeted as Peter, takes an uncomfortable turn when that same man shows up in confessional, wanting to talk with Peter in person.

Unable to lie to himself any longer, and suddenly willing to risk his entire career and life, Peter does the one thing he never dreamed he’d be able to do — he reaches out and touches another man.  He can’t take back what he’s done and can’t pretend it didn’t happen, so that leaves Peter with only one option, to move forward and experience the erotic pleasures found only in the act of gay sex.

Erotic Love & Carnal Sins: Confessions of a Priest is a 29,000-word novella.

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NEW RELEASE: Sex For Money

Today, I’m got something a little different. While I’m still hard at work on the next Forbidden Desires novella (about a priest and a parishioner who fall for each other), I took a little side detour to write a project that’s been nagging at me for a while now.

Sex For Money: How to Write, Publish, and Sell Gay Erotica and M/M Erotic Romance is a handy manual of everything I’ve learned in my years of writing dirty stories. If you’re one of the many people that have heard there’s money to be made in writing erotica and erotic romance, but don’t know how to get started, this book is a basic primer to the publishing landscape for these genres.

So if you’re only interested in my dirty writing, but aren’t interested in writing some yourself, this book isn’t really for you — there’s no sexy content in it. But if you’re an erotica or erotic romance writer, either aspiring, newly published, or you’ve been around for a while and are looking for some perspective, then this book might be just the thing you’re looking for.

Now, time to get back to work and pump out that next dirty novella!

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Cameron D. James is a multiple-bestselling author of gay erotica and M/M erotic romance, and in this all-in-one book, he shares his personal experiences and advice on how to write, publish, and sell your erotic fiction. While it can be difficult to make a living off of writing, the secrets in this book can help you grow your career and increase your sales month after month. Years of experience, research, trial-and-error, and experimenting have led Cameron to hone his approach to writing, publishing, and selling, and he shares everything with you in this book.

This handy manual explains:

  • Key writing and editing advice to ensure the quality of your fiction rises above your competitors.
  • What to look for in a contract if you choose to publish your fiction through a publishing house.
  • The realities of the hard work behind self-publishing your fiction.
  • How to give your book — including the cover and blurb — a spit and polish to make it draw readers in and close that sale.
  • The truth about which online vendors are worth your time… and which ones are best ignored.
  • The secrets of marketing an erotic book in a highly competitive genre.
  • How to effectively use social media to network with readers and sell your books.

Don’t waste time and money trying to figure all of this out on your own when you can learn how to do things correctly on your first try. This book gives you what you want to know, all in one convenient place.

Sex For Money is available as an ebook at AmazonKobo, and Smashwords and retails for $5.99. Are you a Barnes & Noble or iBooks user? It should upload to those sites soon.

Would you rather buy this book in paperback and hold it in your hands? I’m in the midst of finalizing the paperback printing and should have it available in a week or two — I’ll announce it as soon as it’s available!

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My Annual Birthday Erotica Mega-Blowout Sale!

It’s time for my annual birthday mega-sale where I give you a bunch of books for free and offer you a bunch more at a deep discount! And to help celebrate my birthday, a few of my erotica writing colleagues are offering some great deals on their stuff, too!

I’ve got some of my hottest titles up for grabs here, and my friends from my erotica writing group — Sandra and Dominic — have got some smoking hot titles, too!

Sandra Claire writes erotica short stories that are quick and dirty, and she writes them as gay, straight, and bi.  She’s offered up some of her hottest MM titles, but also thrown in some MF and MMF/MFF titles for those who are looking to explore their straight and bi side. 😉

Master Dominic is a newer member of our erotica writing group, and he’s decided to tackle some really “taboo” gay erotica scenarios.  His titles so far explore piss-play and incest, which may be a bit much for some of you, but also might just hit the spot for others.

So, enough rambling, here we go! Free titles first, 50% off titles after that.

(All links go to Smashwords, which is where the coupon codes work.  All coupon codes expire midnight on Sunday March 13, 2016.)


Bathhouse Nights by Cameron D. James — FREE!

In the bathhouse, anything is possible, especially at night when all the studs come out to play.

For cheerleader Daniel, his dream-come-true is a football jock named Justin, but no one in the bathhouse measures up, no matter how hard he tries to play pretend.

Justin is straight, of course. Aren’t they all? There’s no reason for Daniel to expect he’ll score with him…until the night he spots him in the hot tub.

Bathhouse Nights is a 9,300-word short story.

Link: Bathhouse Nights

Coupon Code: DC77W


Gaymer by Cameron D. James — FREE!

gaymer1lowqualitySince start of term, Carter has been secretly lusting after Zack, a quiet twink with smooth arms, geeky charm, and enticing proportions. When Zack invites himself over for retro video games, Carter waits and hopes, but the dreaded “game over” approaches. He has to do something — anything — to get a shot at tasting this delicious young man.

Out comes a strategy to save a gaming disaster. If Carter’s wrong, he might get a black eye, but if he’s right, then this session’s about to level up to something better than his wildest fantasy.

Gaymer is a 3,900-word short story.

Link: Gaymer

Coupon Code: YL92F


Submitting To My Black Master by Sandra Claire — FREE!

Submitting to My Black MasterIt’s Adam’s first day in prison and he’s terrified.  His uncle warned him what to expect, that someone might take advantage of a pretty-boy like him, but that going along with it could get him protection.  But no matter how much he’s prepared himself for this moment, he’s quaking in fear when he sees his cellmate—Tyrone—a tall, muscle-bound, dominating black man who has a thing for skinny white guys like him.  When the cells are locked and the lights go out, just as Adam thinks his cellmate might leave him alone, Tyrone clamps his hand over Adam’s mouth and whispers in his ear, “Don’t scream, white boy.” Yet, despite his fear, Adam can’t get over how turned on he is as he realizes he has no choice but to submit to his black master.

WARNING: This 4,700-word short story contains an explicit sex scene between a dominating black man and a skinny white guy that will get you hot and bothered, and is intended for mature adults only.

Link: Submitting To My Black Master

Coupon Code: AJ44Z


Strip Searched By The Cops by Sandra Claire — FREE!

Strip Searched by the CopsDonovan never would have imagined that for his eighteenth birthday, he’d be getting strip searched by the cops. Nevertheless, after he’s pulled over for joyriding, the dominant female officer and her hulk of a partner proceed to teach Donovan a lesson he’ll never forget. The only thing is, getting Donovan naked is just the start of what these older officers have in mind…and Donovan is soon taking orders he can’t resist.

WARNING: This 4,400-word short story contains an explicit menage sex scene between a hot young man, a hunky older man, and a seductive older woman that will get you hot and bothered, and is intended for mature adults only.

Link: Strip Searched By The Cops

Coupon Code: RL83X


Hot Tub Seduction by Sandra Claire — FREE!

Hot Tub SeductionPizza delivery boy Frank feels like the luckiest man on earth when two hot older women in a hot tub desperately want his sausage pizza.  Frank is a virgin with a high libido and a thing for older women, so just the sight of these two ladies in the hot tub is enough to get his fantasies going.  But then it becomes increasingly clear that the women intend to seduce him and use him as their pleasure toy.  Despite the imminent return of the women’s husbands, Frank can’t help himself as he gives in to his desires and decides this is the perfect time to finally lose his virginity.

WARNING: This 4,100-word short story contains an explicit sex scene between a virginal pizza delivery boy and two hot MILFs that will get you hot and bothered, and is intended for mature adults only.

Link: Hot Tub Seduction

Coupon Code: BN49A


Sorority Seduction by Sandra Claire — FREE!

U3-Sorority-SeductionIn retaliation for last weekend’s panty raid, Jessica’s sorority sisters drag her along on a jockstrap raid. Jessica wants nothing to do with that frat house or the men in it — for one of them is Josh, her cheating ex. Her sisters have other ideas; they want her to personally steal Josh’s jockstrap as a sort-of revenge for the hurt he caused her. But when she rummages around in his dresser in the dark, she discovers she’s not alone — Josh is in bed and under the covers. In a moment of weakness and lust, Jessica’s old feelings for Josh come roaring back, and no matter how hard she fights those feelings, she knows she can’t resist him much longer.

WARNING: This 4,300-word short story contains an explicit sex scene and is intended for mature adults only.

Link: Sorority Seduction

Coupon Code: PH56C


Spanking My Naughty Boy by Master Dominic — FREE!

DS1-Spanking-My-Naughty-BoyMark is still grieving from the death of his wife, Marie, but his nineteen-year-old son, Brendan, is taking it even harder. For months now, Brendan has been coming home drunk and high — and with an attitude that gets on Mark’s every last nerve. Tonight, Mark has had enough of Brendan’s self-destructive behavioru. In the heat of the moment, he pulls Brendan into his lap and gives him the spanking he deserves. But in the moments after the spanking, when Brendan’s rear is still glowing red, Mark hears a confession he never thought he’d hear. Brendan’s attitude and behaviour isn’t all about the death of his mother, it’s also about the lust he has for his father.

4,500-word short story

Link: Spanking My Naughty Boy

Coupon Code: FP28P


Seduced By My Best Friend’s Dad by Cameron D. James and Sandra Claire — 50% OFF!

FD1-Seduced-by-my-Best-Friends-DadJay has a crush on Richard, his best friend’s dad. Richard is older, very masculine, cares about Jay, and is extremely sexy. There are just the problems of Richard being straight, married, and the father of Jay’s life-long best friend.

When Richard takes his son and Jay on a camping trip to celebrate turning eighteen, becoming men, and taking their first steps into the adult world, Jay struggles to contain his lust. Hitting on Richard would ruin the camping trip and destroy his friendship.

But when his friend takes ill and Jay and Richard enjoy some bonding time alone, it becomes clear that Jay isn’t the only one in the thrall of forbidden desires. A relaxing camping trip soon turns into a series of sweaty, erotic encounters, as Jay and Richard stoke this fire burning between them.

Seduced by My Best Friend’s Dad is a 30,000-word novella.

Link: Seduced By My Best Friend’s Dad

Coupon Code: HU93R


Men In The Hot Room: The Complete Series by Cameron D. James — 50% OFF!

Pageflex Persona [document: PRS0000038_00059]A wall of heat rolls through the hot room and sweat beads on Simon’s hard nipples. He contorts his body in all the right ways, intent on seducing his instructor, Brad. And Brad, a man twice Simon’s age, is unable to resist, no matter what the consequences might be. This simple act of seduction soon leads to weeks of scorching hot sex as Men In The Hot Room raises the mercury.

Originally released as separate stories, the bestselling Men In The Hot Room series is now available in one delicious book. Follow the steamy encounters of Simon and Brad that begin in Go Deep, continue with a hot threesome in Go Deeper, and reach a light BDSM climax in Going All The Way.

This collection will have you gasping for breath and reaching for a cold glass of water…or some tissues.

BONUS FEATURE:

Bump and Grind, the start of the Go-Go Boys of Club 21, featuring the exploits of horny young men in New York City’s coolest gay club.

Link: Men In The Hot Room

Coupon Code: PF59D


Go-Go Boys of Club 21: The Complete Series by Cameron D. James — 50% OFF!

GGB21-Complete-Series-Ebook-CoverClub 21 is known across New York City for having the hottest go-go boys. They groove to the beat, fuel fantasies, and leave you begging for more.

Liam is one of those premiere go-go boys, but even though he’s living the life he’s dreamed about, he feels something is missing. And he might have found that something when he gets into a whirlwind romance with a former porn star.

Lance is the newest go-go boy. He took the job because he’s infatuated with Liam and hoping for a chance to get to know him better, but only gets a broken heart as he watches Liam chase some guy he barely knows. As Lance pushes to get closer to Liam, he only pushes him further away.

As the beat goes on and the tempo changes, will Lance be able to win the man of his dreams? Or will Liam forever go off in search of new excitement?

Originally released as five separate stories, this volume at last collect the Go-Go Boys of Club 21 into one hot volume.

Link: Go-Go Boys of Club 21

Coupon Code: SC48S


Forced Encounters by Sandra Claire — 50% OFF!

Forced-EncountersThis hot and sweaty bundle collects all six of Sandra Claire’s gay erotica stories. Each throbbing story features a randy young man who gets himself into a dangerous situation — a situation that quickly evolves into the most mind-blowing gay sex these young men have ever experienced.

Included in this volume are:

FORCED SUBMISSION: Matty finally understands why Scott has bullied and picked on him his whole life.

FORCED ENTRY: Desperate for money, Dylan makes the wrong choice when he breaks into a gay dom’s house.

FORCED TO TAKE IT: Christian risks it all to hit on the straight cowboy at the country bar.

FORCED IN PUBLIC: A flight to Australia lands Kyle in the Mile High Club with two older men.

TAKEN BY FORCE: Caught buying weed, Craig will do anything if the cop will let him off with just a warning.

FORCED BY MY COACH: Coach Brown has had enough of Kevin and his disrespectful attitude, and tonight he’s going to get exactly what he’s been craving.

WARNING: This 28,000-word short story collection contains multiple explicit sex scenes between dominant Alpha men and the submissive men who live to serve them and will get you hot and bothered, and is intended for mature adults only.

Link: Forced Encounters

Coupon Code: RC62H


Cougar Encounters by Sandra Claire — 50% OFF!

Cougar EncountersThis hot and seductive bundle collects all five of Sandra Claire’s cougar stories.  Each raunchy story follows the sexy romps of older women on the prowl for masculine and muscular younger men and shows that mature women are really what those young jocks crave.

Included in this volume are:

COUGAR ON THE PROWL: Single mom Susan is lusting after her son’s best friend and decides to embark on a risky plan to seduce the younger man.

COUGAR IN HEAT: Jesse expects his friend’s mom, Melissa, to be a buzzkill when she joins him and the guys on a ski trip, acting as a chaperone.  But then she shows up naked in the sauna.

COUGAR ON PATROL: Stuck in a dead-end job and eternally single, Rachel risks it all in pursuit of the young man who’s working late in the office.

COUGAR’S CATCH: Nancy’s car breaks down on a lonely highway. When the hot young tow truck driver shows up to the rescue, her already-high libido kicks into overdrive.

COUGAR ON THE HUNT: Julian’s heard all the rumors about naughty Samantha, the cougar who works out at the college gym.  Tonight, he discovers the rumors are true.

WARNING: This 21,000-word short story collection contains multiple explicit sex scenes between younger men and the mature women who crave them and will get you hot and bothered, and is intended for mature adults only.

Link: Cougar Encounters

Coupon Code: QE83L


Piss-Loving Boys 4-Pack by Master Dominic — 50% OFF!

Piss-Loving-Boys-4-PackSometimes guys like to get raunchy, wet, and messy — and given the chance, they’ll give into their dirtiest fantasies. This 4-pack of gay watersports stories will satiate your fantasies, as these boys get soaked in piss. This taboo bundle includes:

PISSED ON BY THE BULLY: Joel tries to entrap the closeted homophobic bully, Brian, but the tables turn when Joel lets loose with a golden stream.

HUMAN URINAL: Cocky and disrespectful, Andrew gets what’s coming to him when a dominating daddy ties him up in the men’s room urinal.

GOLDEN SHOWERS: Thinking he’s alone, Christopher gives into his wettest fantasies — until he’s caught by his straight roommate.

FRAT HOUSE PISS PARTY: Ian is new to the frat house and ready for initiation, until he finds out they know about his secret piss-drinking fetish.

16,700-word bundle

Link: Piss-Loving Boys 4-Pack

Coupon Code: HX76C


Dad Took My Virginity by Master Dominic — 50% OFF!

DS2-Dad-Took-My-VirginityDarren finally works up the courage to explore his gay side and enter the bathhouse. He’s determined to have his first gay sex experience today, no matter what. Walking around in just a towel, he gets nervous and self-conscious, until he finds the pitch-black maze, where he can wander in total darkness, bumping into random men. And it’s in that maze that he finally falls to his knees and does what he’s been aching to do for years. But during a brief moment of speaking, Darren is shocked and horrified to learn that the man he’s servicing is his father — his straight, married father. However, once that line’s been crossed, it’s so tempting to go even further.

5,200-word short story

Link: Dad Took My Virginity

Coupon Code: CV33U


Seducing My Son by Master Dominic — 50% OFF!

DS3-Seducing-My-Son-LargeDavid is a buff, forty-four year old dad in a sexless marriage. When his son, Adam, turns eighteen, David throws a drinking party for Adam’s friends at his house while his wife is out of town and decides to join the fun. In a house full of youthful testosterone, David reminisces over his own youth, only, he finds his thoughts wandering somewhere unexpected as he eyes Adam’s lanky, muscular body. He catches his son staring at him all too often, and soon his libido ventures into the forbidden, to lusts that a father should not indulge. With the buzz of alcohol, though, David can’t hold himself back. He decides to seduce Adam, no matter what the consequences.

5,200-word short story

Link: Seducing My Son

Coupon Code: KY44J


And that’s about all the free and discounted erotica that I could fit into one post!

I hope you enjoy the reads and I hope you enjoy my birthday as much as I will!

 

 

 

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Writers and Self-Doubt — Sex For Money Post #15

Sex For Money is a semi-regular blog series about my experiences in writing, publishing, and marketing gay erotica and M/M erotic romance.  All of this information is from my own experience, so your experience may differ.  It’s hoped that sharing this information might be helpful to new and aspiring erotica and erotic romance authors, as I see a lot of questions and a lot of misinformation out there.  To read more Sex For Money posts, click here.


 

I have a general rule about negative emotions — I don’t share them publicly. As an author, I don’t feel it’s right for me to burden my followers on Twitter with depressive emotions or negative self-image. Twitter isn’t a counselling forum and, quite frankly, while I may sometimes feel those things, I would share them with friends. And while I might form relationships with people on Twitter, that doesn’t make them the kind of friend I would share my innermost feelings with.

I’ve seen a few authors send out a series of public tweets in the midst of a depression and it just doesn’t sit well with me. As an author, we are presenting professional platforms for people to connect with us. We are not reaching out to random strangers for help. If this was done on a personal Twitter account, then that would be more appropriate because it’s not a public persona that is potentially attracting thousands of followers.

But today, I’m going to break that rule.

Sort of.

I’m not in the midst of negative emotions right now — but I was last night. Now that I have distanced myself from what was going through my head last night, now that I’m back to my normal self and have my normal perspective back, I thought it would be good to share what was going on here on the blog. After all, a lot of you are writers, and this had to do with writing.

I’ve never been one of those mega erotica authors who rakes in six figures each month. For the most part, I was making coffee money. Slowly, it inched up so that it was a few fast food meals per month. Then all of a sudden in December 2015, my sales doubled, landing me in the triple digits for the first time ever. I was elated.

Then January 2016 came along and, holy fuck, I doubled what I made in December! And so far, right now in February, I’m on track to land between these two numbers. I’ll probably end up close to January’s sales, but not quite there.

So, all in all, things are going very well for me as a writer. Add on top of that, I’m planning to start a small publisher by the end of the year — I’m excited about it and it’s looking like it’ll actually become a reality and I’m so excited.

Yet, last night, I was crippled with self-doubt. I hid in bed, in the dark, for almost two hours.

I haven’t actually written much of anything since December. I think, somehow, the sudden increase in sales had me wondering if it was all some sort of fluke, and that my writing sales would come crashing down around me. Even though that doesn’t seem to be the case, it was still what was going through my head.

And then I began to wonder, well, fuck, who am I to publish other people’s books? I’m a self-published author with only three years of experience — what gives me the right to call myself a publisher? And then it circled around to my day job — I love the people I work with, but there are some background issues going on that are making my job somewhat unlikeable. And with today’s job market, it’s almost impossible to find a new job.

This led me into a downward spiral that landed me in bed in the dark. I questioned everything about who I am as a writer, as an entrepreneur with my upcoming publishing company, who I am in my day job, and more — and this only led to questioning who I am as a person.

I have no doubt that this is an identity crisis faced by many authors in the course of their careers.

That’s why I wanted to talk about it today. That’s why I broke my rule about negative emotions on my platform.

If you’re an author who is feeling that crippling self-doubt, please know that you are not alone. Others have been there before and others are there right now.

So how do we dig ourselves out of this? How do we get back on track?

The first thing is to remember that who you are as an author has no impact on who you are as a person. Those are entirely separate things. Your self-worth and self-identity should not be wrapped up in your writing successes and failures.

The second thing is to recognize your strengths and successes. Was it a one star review that brought this on? Well, then focus on the five star review you got the other day. Every reader’s opinion is different and you will always get one star reviews. Look at any mega-bestselling book and you’ll find a slew of one star reviews.

Tied into this, if you’re working on a project, is the “two stars and a wish” activity. It’s easy to see everything that’s wrong with a project, and I’ve been crippled by that before and I’ve seen it stall other writers that I admire and respect. There’s an educational self-assessment activity called “two stars and a wish”. If you’re working on a project, identify two things that you did well, and one thing that needs more work. (Notice — you don’t identify one thing you did wrong, you identify one thing that you can improve on.) This might be enough to change your perspective on your project.

The third is to make a to-do list to get yourself back on track. First, write out absolutely everything that you need to get done. Then take a new sheet of paper and draw four quadrants — “priority: must do right away,” “priority: must do soon,” “important: want to get done,” and “important but not urgent.” Once you have this, take a new sheet of paper and write an accomplishable to-do list that consists mostly of “do right away” items and a few “must do soon” items. Somewhere on that paper, write an additional list of a few other random things you need to get done — so if you need a distraction, you can do one of those things. (That’s why I’m writing this post right now!)

The fourth is to do some self-care. This might involve delicious tea, a shower or bath, cuddling up and watching a movie — anything that gets you feeling like your old self.

Those four steps should hopefully let you shed the self-doubt that’s hobbling your writing and progress. The important thing, though, is to never make decisions when you are in a depression like that. It would have been too easy to decide that I wanted to remove all my books from Amazon and say I’m done with writing, I’m done with trying to achieve this dream. Now that I’m on the other side of that dark mindset, I can see it for what it is. And, really, if an author doesn’t sometimes experience this, then they might not be taking writing as seriously as you or I. We want to make this dream come true, and to do that requires investing a lot of time and energy into it — and while doing that makes the dream all the more achievable, it also makes the road all the more rockier.

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NEW RELEASE: Seduced by My Best Friend’s Dad

It’s been quite a while since I’ve had a new release — but that’s because I’ve been working hard on a co-authored project that is super dirty!

Sandra Claire, my co-author, is a writer of smutty short stories of all romantic pairings (MM, MF, MMF, MFF) and someone I know off-line.  We’ve been working hard on a joint project for a few months now — I wanted to do something dirtier and she wanted to do something longer.

Seduced by My Best Friend’s Dad is the raunchy product of this collaboration!

It’s under the series header of Forbidden Desires — which will be a series of novellas co-authored by Sandra and myself, exploring slightly taboo and/or forbidden sex scenarios.  The second novella will feature a priest and parishioner, and the third a professor and student — I hope to have those out in three and six months, respectively.

For now — check out Seduced by My Best Friend’s Dad!

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Jay has a crush on Richard, his best friend’s dad. Richard is older, very masculine, cares about Jay, and is extremely sexy. There are just the problems of Richard being straight, married, and the father of Jay’s life-long best friend.

When Richard takes his son and Jay on a camping trip to celebrate turning eighteen, becoming men, and taking their first steps into the adult world, Jay struggles to contain his lust. Hitting on Richard would ruin the camping trip and destroy his friendship.

But when his friend takes ill and Jay and Richard enjoy some bonding time alone, it becomes clear that Jay isn’t the only one in the thrall of forbidden desires. A relaxing camping trip soon turns into a series of sweaty, erotic encounters, as Jay and Richard stoke this fire burning between them.

Seduced by My Best Friend’s Dad is a 30,000-word novella.

Click here to read an excerpt on my website.

Buy your copy now!

You can find Seduced by My Best Friend’s Dad at All Romance eBooks, Amazon, Excitica, and Smashwords!  (Do you prefer Barnes and Noble, iBooks, or Kobo?  It should be up on those sites by the end of the week — so keep checking!)

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